I WILL FLY

It really is possible I figured to get to
that mental stage
Of simply giving in cos its too darn hard
turning a new page
All around is death its in the news
its within ones own family
I am acutely aware there is only one
of two places to be
Delving into hells fire by living a life
of carnality
Or by staying on the ever so difficult
path  of christianity
Oh I often think carnality is what I
need in these times
To simpy avoid acknowledging the
the reality of the signs
Just getting lost in an alcoholic amnesiac
state of mind
Numb that hurt that horrific pain that
has my heart bound
For at the the end of the day death
seems the only way out
Who honestly wants to live in a world
of heartache and doubt
Yet I know deep within my soul I have
to stay on track
I just have to keep pushing through so Christ
can have my back
Its imperative to trust in Father to heal
His wounded dove
For Who else would know about such
emotion than the one that is Love
So there it is Father I surrender it all to
You
For You know my mind.. my desire
and what I wish to do
Help me to keep this candle burning
Guide me to focus ahead without
backstepping or turning
Because God only You know how
desperately I want to
Yet I'm afraid.. for the life of me I sure
as heck don't want to lose You
I choose to move forward to strive and
live and behave
But shelter me Dad take away the pain
and store it deep within Your God cave
The enemy knows where I'm at and he's
sure going to try
But I know with You by my side I will
get through I Will Fly...

GOODNESS AND MERCY

Stumbling in the darkness longing
for Your embrace
Delving in despair forever seeking
Your face
Shifting my focus from my selfish
ambition
For in my created hell I'm free falling
into self destruction
Yearning for Your hidden manna
I enter that secret place
Adrift in carnal desire I deemed
myself a hopeless case
Acutely aware how simple a task
to merely give in
As the enemies lies has me plunging
in sin
You're my Shepherd Lord You're all
I'll ever need
As You restore my soul I implore You
forever take the lead
For in my own strength I am weak
Yet through this valley of death You
are the only one I seek
As I feast on Your hidden manna I fear
no evil
In this world of lawlessness my sins
are forgiveable
Freely You have given Father and
freely I shall receive
Hope is Kingdom based and therein
I believe
I trust in You Abba Dad through
times of trials and strife
For surely You Goodness And Mercy
shall follow me all the days of my life...

A MOMENT THAT IS MINE

Rain taps against the glass as I

gaze out the window

A sweet melody echoes through 

the speakers on the radio

Enchanted by the lyrics I'm caught

in its sadness

Closing my eyes I recall a moment

of gladness

In this cruel sad world it seems

the only place to be

Lost in the confounds of a pleasant

memory

Pausing at the doorway a little

nervous to venture in

That familiar smell of chicken roasting

in the oven

Mum standing over the stove

cooking up a storm

Wiping her hands on the faded apron

she'd always worn

Without wavering she radiates a

smile

Peeling potatoes while the rest is

cooking all the while

Her lips are moving yet I can not hear

what she's saying

Its like watching an old movie yet she

was not role playing

I'm simply lost in the sparkle of her

green eyes

She seemed so happy no frowns no

worrisome sighs

I look around searching out my

siblings

Only me standing in the doorway as

the voice in the background sings

My heart is elated for in that

sweet precious time

I am lost...lost in a Moment That Is

Mine...

THE UNSEEN GUEST

In a room filled with predatory
disdain
Wishing the ground will open and
deport me from whence I came
Afraid of the snide remarks I tilt
my chin slightly up
Trying real hard to calm the shaking
lest I drop my cup
My head held high - my back as
straight as an arrow
I sure as heck will not let this
uneasiness show
So angry at myself for giving them
the power
In their presence I simply want to
cower
'Please Lord - I'm not sure I even want
to be here
Looking at these people who openly
flaunt my fear'
'A little whisper ..I'm not alone
Spoken in an angelic tone
'You can do all things through
Christ who strengthens you'
I hear the voice say
I turn around to see whose looking my
way
I take the verse and make it my
own
Repeating it until I'm in my comfort
zone
My anger no longer has me bound
By my side is Father - He has always
been around
I feel His presence as the beating of
my heart calms
I find myself meditating on one of His
Godly psalms
Sitting - Standing - Turning - Speaking
I endeavour to be on my best
No longer am I afraid of man yet
acutely aware of the Unseen Guest...

HOPE FOR THE HOPELESS

Broken promises crushed dreams
Delighting in carnality the enemy
gleems
Within mans ignorance he sows a
darkened seed
Preying on vulnerability he governs
an evil breed
Draining innocents until they're ...
entirely spent
Enticing and teasing until they're
broken and bent
Consuming their beings is heart
ache and pain
Toying with emotions increasing
their shame
Within heavenly realms echoes of
suffering reverberates
Tears falling with the rain Father God
retaliates
For those who do not know He gave
His only son
Accept Jesus in your heart and the
battle is almost won
In Him light illuminates the dark
Allow Him entry to ignite that
wanton spark
Father loves intensely you're His
work of art
Created in His image His DNA He
did upon you impart
Within the living word Jesus comes
alive
As you turn the pages He gives
you strength to strive
A bed of roses life will certainly
not be
You will succumb to pressure you
will delve in carnality
Father knows your weakness repent
in Jesus name
Do not harden your heart allow
Him sovereign reign
No matter what you choose, you are
love regardless
Embraced in the loving arms of Jesus
there will always be
Hope For The Hopeless..