I WILL FLY

It really is possible I figured to get to
that mental stage
Of simply giving in cos its too darn hard
turning a new page
All around is death its in the news
its within ones own family
I am acutely aware there is only one
of two places to be
Delving into hells fire by living a life
of carnality
Or by staying on the ever so difficult
path  of christianity
Oh I often think carnality is what I
need in these times
To simpy avoid acknowledging the
the reality of the signs
Just getting lost in an alcoholic amnesiac
state of mind
Numb that hurt that horrific pain that
has my heart bound
For at the the end of the day death
seems the only way out
Who honestly wants to live in a world
of heartache and doubt
Yet I know deep within my soul I have
to stay on track
I just have to keep pushing through so Christ
can have my back
Its imperative to trust in Father to heal
His wounded dove
For Who else would know about such
emotion than the one that is Love
So there it is Father I surrender it all to
You
For You know my mind.. my desire
and what I wish to do
Help me to keep this candle burning
Guide me to focus ahead without
backstepping or turning
Because God only You know how
desperately I want to
Yet I'm afraid.. for the life of me I sure
as heck don't want to lose You
I choose to move forward to strive and
live and behave
But shelter me Dad take away the pain
and store it deep within Your God cave
The enemy knows where I'm at and he's
sure going to try
But I know with You by my side I will
get through I Will Fly...